18 days

Happy New Year! Its 2010

Well I can't believe January is here its already the 4th and we have 18 days left until we leave for Czech! Time seems to be flying by so fast.

I received my passport on Dec. 30th we are so relieved and this time everything was correct..yay! We also did some more shopping this week, I love to shop. I got some long sleeve shirts and a new jacket. John got a couple of things at American Eagle. My mom is letting me borrow her carry on luggage so I might start packing some of our stuff. I'm trying to think of it as a vacation it helps me to think of it that way. John has been looking online at different things we can do while are there. I told him I want to go out and do things to keep my mind off the procedure.

Lately I have been feeling kinda of scared about the whole thing. But God is with me and he showed it to me on Sunday. Just as I'm thinking about all my fears he sent me a message through our preacher Paul. The sermon was titled Confronting Fears focusing on Matthew 8:26 . WoW I knew right away this was God's way of telling me I hear you and I am here for you. Mr. Paul said to overcome fear you need FAITH and COURAGE. He also said we need to walk in FAITH because life can be fearful. That sermon was meant for me, I needed to hear it. I need faith. Which brings me to think if we have a baby girl Faith sounds like a great name. Faith means so much to me now. I want to have faith. If I have faith and courage my fears of flying, the procedure (in-vitro), and worst one the fear of losing the our baby when we return home. I know God is with us through this whole process and I don't have to be afraid about anything. I feel at peace.
here is my favorite bible verse from the sermon Matthew 14:27~ But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."